these are my musings on faith, family, and things that make me laugh. thanks for dropping by. -rob
Posted by rob's thoughtful spot at 2:44 PM
I don't really like meetings.
I deal with a bit of social anxiety, and meetings make me a little nervous.
from time to time, we have staff meetings at church, and usually my goal is to be sort of invisible. I try to sit close to people who will do a lot of the talking or the ones I've known the longest for the sake of feeling comfortable.
this last week, we were having a lunch meeting, and I found an open spot at a table next to some old friends. but I also saw the senior pastor's stuff placed near the open spot. I've known him for a few years, but I still feel a little nervous around him. do I sit next to him and my close friends? or do I just go and sit somewhere else? I picked the friends.
well, my pastor sat down right next to me. he asked me how I was doing, and I said, "good" and then quickly asked him how he was doing- to get the attention off of myself. he chatted for awhile and then kept the conversation going. we talked a bit about his new grandchild and then he asked me what I was memorizing. I know that he likes memorizing verses too, so this was a topic that we had in common. I told him that I was working on Hebrews, and I mentioned some theological questions that my study had uncovered. its like I shot off a starter's pistol at a track meet, because he got off and running with commentary, greek grammar and insights about the book of hebrews. and he didn't even have to look in a book or use the bible!
you probably know who this guy is, but if you don't, he is kind of famous in ministry circles. I heard recently that some 3 million people listen to his messages either online, or on the radio every week. and here I was having a one on one conversation with him about the bible- and he was explaining it, just to me. and while he was talking about greek verbs and bible translations, I thought to myself, "there are three million people who would love to sit where I'm sitting and share in this conversation." and it made me appreciate it- and him, even more. and I couldn't help but smile at how cool the whole thing was.
its been 13- almost 14 years at the church for me. I've seen some good times and some not-so-good times; but these are good days. I really like my boss. the volunteer team for the students are so solid. the students themselves, are super-cool; and I have a lot of freedom to do what I think needs to be done. how cool is that?!
instead of looking back on good days, or looking forward to good days- sometimes its just good to recognize that these are the good days right now.
God is love.
Posted by rob's thoughtful spot at 9:59 AM
last week I was having lunch at jack in the box with jane- we finished up and she stopped to use the restroom before we ran more errands. it was one of those situations where the restaurant had to push a button on the counter to open up the bathroom. so I asked the counter people to push the button, and was making sure it opened, when a bunch of ladies walked in the door. they had a coffee cup and some lollipops and started asking me if I wanted to make a donation to their church. I was watching jane, and talking to the counter people, and I wasn't really paying attention to the church ladies.
then one of them came straight up to me and started asking me questions. she was a really old Hispanic lady with wrinkles like mother Teresa. she grabbed my wrist and said, "do you know who your biggest enemy is? have you ever heard about your biggest enemy is?"
I was pretty sure that she was going to tell me that satan was my biggest enemy and about my need for jesus. so I finally focused on her and said, "who is my biggest enemy?"
and then she looked me right in the eyes and said, "YOU are your biggest enemy. aren't you?"
"when you are impatient- you do things that you wish you didn't don't you? its YOU that is your biggest enemy."
and then she walked off. jane came out of the bathroom and we left the restaurant.
at first I thought that she was kind of a weird lady; but in recent days, my patience has been tested. people in front of me are slow, service at stores is bad, kids (including my own) misbehave; and there is a temptation inside of me to do something or say something that I might regret out my impatience and frustration with the situation. and then I remember that lady- and how my own impatient self is my worst enemy- and that helps me to coach myself to be patient.
and it reminds me of that verse in Hebrews that says, "do not forget to show hospitality to strangers, for by so doing some people have shown hospitality to angels without knowing it." and it makes me wonder- "WAS she an angel sent to warn me not to be impatient?"
whether she was an angel or she wasn't- it was good advice.
for me- and for you too-
God is love.
Posted by rob's thoughtful spot at 2:38 PM