lectio-divina:: the hornet

I was reading the last part of Joshua today and a mysterious phrase came up. it appears three times in the old testament, its “the hornet.”


in exodus 23, God talks about sending an angel ahead of the Israelites- but then He talks about sending His “terror”- are they the same thing? in verse 27 it says, “I will send my terror ahead of you and throw into confusion every nation you encounter. I will make all your enemies turn their backs and run.”


then in the next verse God says “I will send the hornet ahead of you to drive the Hivites, Canaanites and Hittites out of your way.”


so in one chapter, God is driving out israel’s enemies with an angel, His terror, and the hornet. are they all the same thing? what is it? what was it like to encounter God’s terror? His hornet? whatever it was, it was, it made israel’s enemies run.


in deuteronomy 7:20 it says, “the LORD your God will send the hornet among them until even the survivors who hide from you have perished.”


and in joshua 24, God is talking about how He fought for Israel saying, “I sent the hornet ahead of you, which drove them out before you—also the two Amorite kings. You did not do it with your own sword and bow.”


what is the hornet? who is it? could you see it?

a lot of sources will be honest and say that they don’t know what it is. here are two ideas that I have:


maybe its a feeling, that God filled people with, as they heard Him and His people coming.


in the beginning of joshua, the spies enter the city of jericho and meet rahab. she tells them, “I know that the LORD has given this land to you and that a great fear of you has fallen on us, so that all who live in this country are melting in fear because of you. we have heard how the LORD dried up the water of the red sea for you when you came out of egypt… when we heard of it, our hearts melted and everyone's courage failed because of you, for the LORD your God is God in heaven above and on the earth below.”


next they cross the jordan on dry land. and while the water is stopped, they decide to set up memorial stones in the dry riverbed! they defy nature- what chance does anyone stand against them?


next they go up to jericho and instead of attacking it, they walked around it. they aren’t afraid- they are completely confident. they aren’t in any hurry. and when they did attack it, they just walked some more, and then played instruments- and the walls fell. what kind of terror zoomed through the land after that?


after that, one nation just surrendered.


and then other nations gathered together to make alliances. on one occasion, joshua didn’t even sneak up on these alliances- he just attacked them head on- and defeated them.


so maybe the hornet was israel’s reputation of being indestructible.


on another occasion, Joshua meets a man “in front of him with a sword drawn in his hand.”
“Joshua went up to him and demanded, “Are you friend or foe?”
“neither one,” he replied.
“I am the commander of the Lord’s army.”
at this, Joshua fell with his face to the ground in reverence. “I am at your command,” Joshua said.
“what do you want your servant to do?”
the commander of the Lord’s army replied,
“take off your sandals,
for the place where you are standing is holy.”


maybe this guy was the hornet! and the Lord’s army was his swarm.


whatever the hornet was, it was God’s agent to fight for and protect God’s people. when God fights for you, nothing stands in His way, not even nature. nature becomes His tool, not His obstacle. as the scripture says, “what, then, shall we say in response to this? if God is for us, who can be against us?”

breastplate of st. patrick

cal

here are some stories about my cat, calvin-


I got him when I was in seminary, and I thought it would be fun to name him after a theologian. he was almost luther or barth, but calvin seemed to fit better.

he was originally named shadow, because he’s all black. I got him from my first admin, teddy. it took me a long time to tell her that I changed his name to calvin. (although most of the time I just call him cal.)

cal has this thing for running water. when he was a kitten, he used to hop into the shower and play with the water drops on the wall. when we moved into the apartments, we used to run the water in the bathroom to muffle any sounds that might come out of the bathroom. at first, cal would go in and play with the running water in the sink- now he expects to get a drink out of the faucet every time someone goes into the bathroom. its pretty much the only way he drinks water now. when I wake up in the morning he zooms into the bathroom because he’s too snobby to drink out of his cat-dish.

when we lived in modesto, we had hardwood floors. cal would race from room to room chasing super-balls. if I bounced one over the sofa, he could clear it with one jump.

whenever I sleep in my bed- whether I’m taking a nap, or sleeping at night, calvin sleeps in between my legs, lounging on my right ankle. sometimes if its late at night, he stares me down, trying to encourage me to go to bed.

he sits on top of my tv, so he can keep an eye on everything. I’m ok with that as long as his tail doesn’t block the score of the game that I’m watching.

I bought this brush/ glove to pull some of his excess fur off. it has a velro strap on it. for a long time, if he heard Velcro being opened he came running. he purred so hard when I brushed him that he drooled like crazy- gross!

speaking of gross, calvin pukes a lot. I think it comes from drinking out of the sink if there is still soap reside in it.


when we moved into our apartment he didn’t have much to look at. so we got a bird feeder for the window and he was entertained all day. when we lived in modesto he spent most nights looking out the window at his cat-friend who looked in at him. they would just sit there, staring at each other. he enjoyed squirrels until I stopped feeding them. these things are barbaric.

when jane was born, calvin didn’t want anything to do with her, and she didn’t want anything to do with him. now they have a funny little friendship. jane often calls him, and she thinks its pretty cool that he responds. she says, “come over here calvin!” and he follows her around the house. she often asks for a nose-kiss from calvin, but he’s not that into her. he likes to chase the light of a flashlight, and she likes to play that game with him.

deanna isn’t into cal very much- maybe it’s the puke or the maintenance. or the cat-fur everywhere. or the fact that he tries to trip her by walking in front of her.

cal has a thing for lunchmeat. especially turkey. he goes nuts whenever I make a sandwich and meows obnoxiously until I drop a piece in his bowl.

he’s never been outside ever. I don’t think he’s interested anymore. he wouldn’t last one night.

he thinks he’s pretty bad though. sometimes I walk down the hall and he goes for a tackle by wrapping up my leg. he used to fight stuffed animals and puppets- but not so much anymore.

my friend marc used to say that I’m like a cat- because I spend a lot of time by myself, I’m pretty clean, fairly snobby about what I eat, and if I want attention, I’ll make an appearance. maybe that’s why cal and I get along so well. that, and we like sleeping.



“a righteous man cares for the needs of his animal, but the kindest acts of the wicked are cruel.”
-proverbs 12:10

myspace is depressing

when i first got onto myspace and facebook it was so cool. i got to read about everyone’s interests and see their pictures, but now its so depressing. so many people that i have invested my life into are choosing the very things that i encouraged them to stay away from. college kids are having sex and drinking, high school kids have pictures of themselves holding alcohol and drug pipes- i see great girls hanging on the necks of sleazy, oily boys. its such a downer.

all of this makes me ask myself, “what went wrong? where did it all go wrong?” i mean i watched all of these kids stand up at hume lake with tears in their eyes and give their lives to Christ- and now they recording their rebellion to Christ for the entire world wide web to see. did we not being it strong enough? did everyone just ignore our words? were they sitting in their pews on Sunday mornings and just appearing to care but really not? it is the parents? college professors? the media? i don’t know what i’m going to do, but pretty soon you’ll see a picture of me on the internet holding drugs: anti-depressants.

friends- make good choices, ok?
God gave us these standards not to take away our freedom, but to GIVE US FREEDOM and a life with no scars and no regrets.
choose life.
-rob

random-rob-thoughts: march 10

:: I saw U23D twice last weekend- and I’m still blown away by it. it is the best use of 3D technology ever. it may be the coolest movie-experience that I’ve ever had.


:: while I was at the movies, I saw a LOT of students that I knew. there was a funny dichotomy between the students who ran up and said hi and the students who saw me, made eye-contact with me, and then turned the other way. I thought about going up to embarrass them, but I decided not to. one of the students saw me wearing my 3D glasses on my head and saw me hanging out with bruce and jeff, and asked, "did you guys just go see hannah montana?"


:: one of my old volunteers left me a voice mail message this weekend apologizing for a conflict that we had over five years ago. I was surprised and extremely blessed by that message.


:: jane and I went to the park twice this weekend. we discovered that if she slides down the slide laying down, it kick up a lot of static electricity and gives us both a big shock when we touch- and she thought that was pretty funny.


:: there is a Christian school that meets at my church. this means that I see a LOT of students each day. one student that stands out over the years is a boy named james. he was totally funny, and he really enjoyed coming to visit me. he also had turrets syndrome, so I could hear him coming from down the hall! when he came in, he had to tap on the door-knobs as he entered. I asked him why and he just said that he had to. it would be easy to make fun of him, but he was such a kind and friendly kid, there is no way that I ever could. I saw him for the first time in like five or six years. I could tell that he had gained more control of his turrets, but it was still there. he was so pumped after going to church. he told me that he was in college and studying to be a special ed teacher. my heart was so warmed by seeing him that I started to tear up- I told him that he would be perfect for that role, and I know that he will be.


:: I’m starting a campus club in a shopping center! I’m teaming up with 2 other youth pastors- we’re renting a store on wednesday mornings for students to come into before school to get a snack and some inspiration- its all coming together and we should start april 2. we could reach 100+ students a week! whoa!


:: just read the story of Joshua and the battle of ai and the sin of achan. here are a few thoughts: 1) leadership isn’t just about being a celebrity- its often about confrontation and hard conversations. 2) the Israelites got over to the promised land, but were not given a license to sin. God noticed achan’s sin, even though it was small. 3) achan’s sin cost him his life, his family’s life, and the lives of many soldiers- our sin never hurts just us. 4) as a leader sometimes there are losses and defeats that are not your fault. they are someone else’s fault, yet you still have to deal with them.


:: I’ve discovered that my daughter cannot be bought or bribed. but if she ever decided to use the potty or go into a bouncey house, i’ll have to pay up on so many bribes that I might just go broke!

clocks

I’ve got a thing for knowing what time it is.
I always think its rude when you’re in a conversation with someone and they check their watch.
I also think that its distracting when you see a preacher check his watch. it makes you want to check yours.
I also find it comforting to know how much time I have before what comes next; because I don’t like being rushed, and I don’t like being late.

so-
to address all of these things- I have secretly placed clocks EVERYWHERE.



my favorites kinds of clocks are the digital ones that set themselves to the exact time and they tell the temperature too!



(itsn’t that annoying that many DIGITAL clocks can’t keep the time?!)
today I counted all of my clocks, because I had to reset ALL of them!

there is:
2 in my bathroom,
1 in the shower room/ laundry room to see while I’m showering
1 in my closet to see when I’m getting dressed.
3 in the bedroom
2 in my car
1 on my key chain
1 in the kitchen
3 in the living room
1 on my laptop
1 in jane’s room
1 on my cell phone- and that’s just at my house!
at work I’ve got a whopping

5 in my office!
3 in the sitting area outside of my office
3 in the game room,
2 in the room I use wednesdays, and
2 in the room I use on sundays.
I have multiples in a room so that I can naturally see them no matter what direction I’m facing.



not only that, you’ll almost never see me without my watch,
and I keep a spare in my bag, my desk, and in my car.
sheesh!

the other day jane climbed into our bed in the morning. it was 6:30, and she knows that she needs to stay in bed until 7. she grabbed my clock and said, “what does the clock say? it says SIX, THREE, ZERO! now what does the clock say? it says SIX, THREE, ONE!” she would have kept that up until 7 if we didn’t distract her. as she was rattling off each minute I thought to myself, “oh no! she’s becoming obsessed with minutes just like me!”

one time I lost my watch at hume lake and my friend chris laughed at me. I eventually bought another one. I felt naked. I told him, “chris! you don’t know what its like to be rob walter without a watch! its painful!”

I justify my time obsession with a scripture from the old king james:
“see then that you walk circumspectly, not as fools but as wise, redeeming the time, because the days are evil.”
-ephesians 5.

so, if you ever want to know what time it is, come ask me. I can probably tell you without even looking down at my wrist.

jane-quotes 03/05

today jane and i left for our daddy-daughter time and jane said, “i like playing with dad today.” i said, “i like playing with jane today.”


she got out a box of cards and pointed it at me and said, “i would like this open dad!” i said, “what’s the magic word?” and she said, “MESSKA-MOOSKA-MICKEY-MOUSE!” “that’s not the magic word!” i said. she said, “hocus-pocus!”


gotta lay off that tv for awhile…

church//gym: entry08

when I first started going to the gym, I’d just walk in, listen to my iPod, and then leave without talking to anyone. eventually, some very thoughtful and friendly people smiled at me and waved on the way in and out. not only that, some really nice people just came up to me and introduced themselves and showed interest in me. each time they came up to me, I had a choice to make: will I be a snob, or will I open myself up to a friendship with this person? I also had another choice: will I leave my headphones in my ears or will I pull them out when someone is talking to me?


things are a lot different now, after3 months at the gym. I still make my exercise mixes for my iPod, but I don’t even get through 2 or 3 songs most days. now my friends walk up to me, tap me on the shoulder and say hi. they ask me what I think about the game last night or the elections. and every time my friends come up to me I pull my headphones and I rarely put them back in.


this got me thinking about church. a lot of people feel uncomfortable at church because they don’t have relationships. they feel that they don’t have relationships because church-people are exclusive or snobby. and some people are. but my experience at the gym has showed me that if you show up consistently, you’ll meet someone, even if you weren’t trying to. and my experience has shown me that the amount of friends we have usually isn’t because of everyone else’s snobbiness, but it’s because of our own. each of us need to decide if we will open ourselves up to a new friendship or not. the reality is that most people who feel that everyone is snobby really mean that the people that they HOPE to be friends with are snobby. there are a ton of friendly people at church that are really trying hard to make friends and to be friendly. if we would just open ourselves up to a friendship with them and lower our own defenses and ego, we could meet some really cool people; and really look forward to our next visit.


here is another thought-
my friend gary is SEVENTY-SEVEN. he is a beast. I was stepping on the elliptical next to him this morning and I was going super fast, trying to get my 6000 steps (which has become a lot easier lately- just like he told me it would!). I put raise the incline one level every six minutes. gary goes for 30 minutes with the incline as HIGH AS IT WILL GO. and he goes fast. it’s like he is sprinting up a steep hill for 30 minutes. did I mention that he is SEVENTY-SEVEN?! as he has the stamina to chat with people and encourage them. this morning we were both stepping pretty fast and this lady behind us on the treadmill said to gary, “you’re almost keeping up with your friend!” and he said, “no- no- rob is much faster than me.” he’s 77! and the truth is, I’m a LONG way from doing his workout! i asked him what he does after his cardio workout, and he said he does 400 crunches! i've got nothing on gary- and i'm not even half his age!


the church//gym illustration: there are older people at church and at the gym who are super-cool and we all could learn a lot from.

animusic

i think this stuff is so cool-

jane-quotes 03/01

jane has a way of memorizing and repeating random quotes from tv. lately when we hear something like, “we’ve got to walk up stone-step hill!” or “shake-shake-shake your peanut!” instead of thinking that our daughter has lost it, we just ask, “who says that?” and she usually tells us which character on tv she heard it from.


lately jane has been repeating deanna and i and its pretty cute/ funny. lately she comes up to us and says, “you know what? i love you. and you know what? i’m proud of you.” and then she gives us a hug.


lately i’ve been walking around the house saying, “have you guys seen my hug?” jane usually says, “i think its in the kitchen.” so we walk into the kitchen and she gives me a hug and i say, “THERE’S my hug! i thought i lost it!”


tonight after bath-time jane came up to me and said, “have you seen my hug?”
cute kid!





p.s. my wife climbs in jungle-gyms!